Well, it's been over 2 weeks since I started my new life and DietBet and Weight Watchers. How am I doing you ask? I know you didn't really ask, but you're reading this so obviously you're dying to know.  Well, I'm proud to say, I think it's sticking!!! I have not had a soda in close to 3 weeks... NONE!! Eno at Sonic probably thinks I've died. I pretty much have drank water and sparkling water. I saved my points for beer a couple of nights. I had a nonfat latte tonight but again... I had to points.  I have not had more than a taste of refined sugar and I have stayed within my points. And I honestly, for real, not lying, feel great!!  I feel empowered, I feel more energy, confidence and will power!! Is it hard? Heck yeah, but not nearly as hard as I thought. Do I miss some things... Oh yeah! But, I know that food is an addiction and a VERY slippery slope for me so at this point, I have to avoid things that could send me down that slope.
Have I exercised? Why yes, yes I have.  I don't do the gym.  It's just not my thing right now, but maybe it will be someday.  I am walking and actually running.  Just a bit, but I am doing it and it's hard and uncomfortable, but it feels good to do it and I can move more already just from a few days of getting off the damn couch.  I do so love the couch, but I need to get off it more often. I am planning to do a 5k sometime in June for sure, maybe sooner and I would like to run at least half of it.  That's my goal.  But what is my weight goal you ask? Well, I don't really have one.  I can't focus on the scale.  I have to weigh in for WW, but I am trying to keep that away from my focus.  I have a goal of fitting on a ride at Six Flags, and not using a seatbelt extender on a plane and shopping in a regular store.  My goal is to LIVE and not be a prisoner of my weight.  To be an example of health, courage, self-control, overcoming, and the hardest... patience.  I know it's only been 3 weeks, but I can see my journey ahead, you know picture it in my head.  Once I can do that, I know I will get there.  So, look out... there is a skinny bitch in here that's breaking out...one good choice at a time!.

 
HOLY COW!!! I had a HELL of a workout today with Marci!!  She made me do these awful things with balls, and walls. It was so hard!! LOL... sorry, sometimes I'm a 13 year old boy.  So, I have a whole new routine to work through.  I am getting back to writing in my food journal.  I have a plan to get off soda and a little different outlook on my food choices.  I need to work on drinking water and NOT drinking beer.  Somehow over the last few years I have learned to love beer. My favorite thing to do these days is Hanover's on Thursday night karaoke.  It requires me to drink lots of Blue Moon.  So, as much as I love it, it is not good for me and I need to limit it.  I am stoked to begin this new routine.  I am excited to feel strong and gain endurance.  When all this fat falls off, I might have a 6-pack under there!!!!
There you go... and here I go!
BTW, when Marci called me to go workout, I had just opened a really cold Devil's Backbone.  The beer we've been waiting a year for to come out... it's seasonal from Real Ale.  Love it.. and I was gonna drink it and blow off the gym.  God had other plans... and so did Marci.  She is so great.  She's helping me out just because and though she tried to kill me, she encouraged me every step of the way through every plank and push up and wall sit. God has put some amazing people in my life since we moved up here.  I am so thankful and I feel like I really have a chance to do this!!
 
I didn't want to go to the gym today...but I did.  I have been seriously struggling with sugar all weekend. Eating better still overall. I went to the the gym on Saturday and I walked that evening with my friend and neighbor Karyn.  It was less than a mile but still kept a decent pace.  Sunday was a no exercise day.  I was lazy and maybe recovering from Hanovers with the girls Saturday night. LOL.  So, I'm glad Chris got me back to the gym today.  I actually went through my circuit 3 times for the first time. YAY ME!! I made an appt with the trainer for Thursday to take me through some core strengthening exercises.  I'm hoping to add those to my circuit. I have a feeling they are going to suck!!  I have had 4 C-sections and my core is WEAK!! I want to be strong like bull in my core...but right now I am weak like fat girl. I can feel the workouts getting easier.  Walking, I can go further.
The food is my demon right now. It kills me to ruin those calories burned by all the exercise by having a sugar binge.  I have done ok, with soda.  I have had one or two...not gonna lie. I think about them all the time. It's sick really. Sigh...  So, that's that for tonight. Tomorrow is a new day for food choices!
 
I went to the freaking gym today.  I have decided that as much as I detest early morning waking, I enjoy the gym more then than after work. I was dragging today.  My cute little 12 year old trainer (not really, but he might as well be. LOL He's probably 22) was there cheering me on. He's great...just young and fit and annoyingly cute and happy.  sigh... My food choices have been ok... no soda though I desperately wanted one.  I had a sandwich for lunch and salad for dinner.  Not getting enough protein and my diet has too much fat and carbs.  I have an appointment with an exercise physiologist and nutritionist next month.  I am hoping to learn something good from them.  I did have a peep...not gonna lie.  But just one cute little yellow one.  I'm sitting here thinking about the candy bar on the kitchen table...the kids wouldn't miss it.  I am determined to refrain.  Why do you crave sugar so badly after you eat a meal? Or is it just me???
I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to the simple things about not being so damn fat.  I have broken a rolling chair at work due to my fat butt sitting in it.  I have to get on an airplane in a couple of weeks...gonna have to ask for a seatbelt extender. SOOOOO embarrassing... not to mention the look on people's face when they see they have to sit by me. I feel it sometimes too when I clean people's teeth.  They hate to have to be so close to so much of me.  And I am always so freaking hot!!!!!  I am a walking sweatshop. I just want to be a healthy somewhat normal size person.  So, no scale right now.  Just doing the work and knowing that I am going to feel better.  Thanks for coming along on this journey.  I sooo needed a good day today. I am going to have one tomorrow too!